“ Life Has Changed Forever”
I’ve decided to start blogging again, if only for some peace in my own life. Many are scared and live with a feeling of dread each day. It is surreal to say the least and no one can find an end in their own head. Conflicting stories confuse us on social media and the news. Each day we get up to something different than the day before, whether it be new protocol to keep us safe to how many people died while we slept.
My peace time is not to sit and watch The Tiger King, although for many it can take you out of your head. I choose to focus on what life can be soon enough.
I always wondered if something like this world wide event would happen in my life, I bet you did too! So it’s here and we will all find our way through it.
I guess my blog is exactly it’s title. I’m not sugar coating things to help people but letting out thoughts we all have but may be scared to admit or talk to anyone about for fear they might think we are crazy. It’s ok to be crazy right now and admit it!! It’s ok to wonder if you won’t make it through this time. It’s ok to wake up in a panic and throw the covers back over your head and contemplate just staying safe in your bed, I do daily.
I work outside my home and each day seems like a war to fight until I can get back to the safe bunker of my home. All the rules to remember and the fact that each person is your enemy because that might have it!!! Oh I forgot and touched my face, I might have been 3 inches too close to that person I walked by, why is that person coughing? The list never ends. And more is added to they list everyday. Wear a mask, don’t wear a mask. I have never felt so guilty for living!!!
I have had anxiety all of my life and let me tell you it’s a monster in itself. The “ what if “ scenarios I play in my head, I’m sure many now might be just seeing the tip of my iceberg.
I’m scared to go shopping, I’m scared to bring it home, I’m awestruck at how many people are aren’t taking this seriously.
On a brighter note, I was blessed to find chicken and I can’t believe I’m saying that. Food was nothing to find 2 months ago and yet today it seems in this ominous abyss there might not be any one day.
As I walked my dogs this morning in the beautiful sunshine, the trees looked exceptionally happy and the breeze rustling the leaves made me feel as if everyone home seems to let the world take a breath. The sun seemed to put a crystal like glow on the grass and all was very quiet. We walked past a few and shouted our concerns to a friend... but I felt for one moment I might be ok. We will😊
My peace time is not to sit and watch The Tiger King, although for many it can take you out of your head. I choose to focus on what life can be soon enough.
I always wondered if something like this world wide event would happen in my life, I bet you did too! So it’s here and we will all find our way through it.
I guess my blog is exactly it’s title. I’m not sugar coating things to help people but letting out thoughts we all have but may be scared to admit or talk to anyone about for fear they might think we are crazy. It’s ok to be crazy right now and admit it!! It’s ok to wonder if you won’t make it through this time. It’s ok to wake up in a panic and throw the covers back over your head and contemplate just staying safe in your bed, I do daily.
I work outside my home and each day seems like a war to fight until I can get back to the safe bunker of my home. All the rules to remember and the fact that each person is your enemy because that might have it!!! Oh I forgot and touched my face, I might have been 3 inches too close to that person I walked by, why is that person coughing? The list never ends. And more is added to they list everyday. Wear a mask, don’t wear a mask. I have never felt so guilty for living!!!
I have had anxiety all of my life and let me tell you it’s a monster in itself. The “ what if “ scenarios I play in my head, I’m sure many now might be just seeing the tip of my iceberg.
I’m scared to go shopping, I’m scared to bring it home, I’m awestruck at how many people are aren’t taking this seriously.
On a brighter note, I was blessed to find chicken and I can’t believe I’m saying that. Food was nothing to find 2 months ago and yet today it seems in this ominous abyss there might not be any one day.
As I walked my dogs this morning in the beautiful sunshine, the trees looked exceptionally happy and the breeze rustling the leaves made me feel as if everyone home seems to let the world take a breath. The sun seemed to put a crystal like glow on the grass and all was very quiet. We walked past a few and shouted our concerns to a friend... but I felt for one moment I might be ok. We will😊
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